The Universe is laughing so hard at me I can hear it

[Almathea]

Aww thanks again! Now I'm off to my next manifesting experiment. I have to decide what it is first and if I succeed something I'll tell you guys.

[Almathea]

Hey guys... I think I'm going crazy here and alltough this will probably be the most ''negative'' post on this board I just have to tell someone. I am so freakin fed up with faking smiles and pretending everything is fine. That's what I've been doing all day and I must be a pretty good actress since my own mother didn't notice anything is wrong...

Anyway the thing is I've discovered something new I want to manifest and it is huge in every way possible but at the same time it would make my life PERFECT I mean seriously it would resolve every problem I will ever have in my life... and when I think about how beautiful it would be if just came true I get overwhelmed with these mixed feelings of enthusiasm and happiness and so many other things... And then I automatically remind myself how impossible it is and there's this voice inside of me that keeps screaming that it takes a miracle for it to happen and miracles don't just show up when you want them...

I have never felt so hopeless and desperate in my life and the worse part is that waking up this morning I was feeling great I don't know what the heck happened suddenly I started facing reality in the cruelest way possible: it won't happen it just won't because it's impossible and sooo far fetched. And I know Anisa always sais we should make peace with the possibility of never having what we want because it would mean it's not meant to be... but thinking it wont happen is pure suicide because it's just killing me inside... This has never ever happened to me since I started manifesting... and on Christmas Eve of all the days of the year it just had to be my favorite holiday... and I have to be around people you know and decorate the tree and stuff...

Sorry for making you guys read this pathetic speech but I had to tell someone who would actually understand preferably before I jump off a bridge.

[ronit]

Why do you leave us cliff hanging ? what is that perfect thing ?

[dolphindream]

Almathea~   WHAT is going on?   We can all help you here but you need to let us in on it.   Never ever think you are "pretending" or faking.  You seem to be a very genuine person and you are deserving of every wish or dream that you have. 

Today is Christmas Eve, it is a time to be happy and to be in "gratitude".  We are so blessed to be with our families. Just think about all the young men and woman who are not with their families because they are protecting our freedom (atleast I want to believe that this is what they are putting their lives on the line for, none the less they are not warm and safe like we are right NOW in this moment)
so please let us help you and know that here on this board...WE  Play, pray,  and work together. 

Keep us in the loop...we are all here to help each other.   Blessings of love to you and yours and I am manifesting you to be trimming the tree and listening to beautiful Christmas music and creating and fulfilling all of your visions....Right Now!  I wish all of this for you and more! 

[Almathea]

Wow! Never in my life have I met such a friendly and warm person like you Desiree! I mean I can just feel your positive energy from here, a million miles away. Blessings to you too!

You guys kinda helped me without doing anything... the fact that I wrote everything I felt here really helped and strangely I feel at peace. Never thought that would happen so soon. Actually come to think of it, my huge problem doesn't seem so huge anymore. I know it won't sound like such a big deal to you but it involves moving to the U.S. And let me tell you just how impossible that is: my parents are building a house here, my dad doen't know english (except hello and goodbye), my mom kinda knows the language but certainly not enough to have a decent conversation with a native speaker, plus what would they do in America? they couldn't find jobs or anything... Of course we have very good friends in L.A. and a relative in Chicago (and he always said when I'll want to study in the U.S. he'll help me). But I've kept having this dream since I was small that everything is perfect there, the people are so different than here. Like you guys are the best example: you don't see people being so nice to each other here in Romania or being so open-minded and sociable... And when I think about the many things I could do there... And the people I could meet... heck I could become a celebrity if I want to. But that's not what I want. The essence of what I want is to feel at home. I've never felt at home here (because you wouldn't believe how hard it is to find a good friend... they're all so phonyand their so-called ''friendships'' are built on interests or the need of being ''cool'' or ''popular'').

So, um, that's pretty much it. And don't get me wrong, I am sooo grateful for everything I've got and I realise that other people are doing much worse so I'm not complaining. It's just human nature that's speaking: we will always want what we can't have. I'd sure love to see how the Universe will figure this one out.

It's nice to know there is life on this planet and I'm so grateful that this place exists. Many lives will be changed by these conversations.

Lots of love,
Almathea

[dolphindream]

Almathea..thank you so much for your kind words.  I know that if you want to come here (We would love to have you!) then you will.  I know sometimes we get these thoughts and dreams and then all of a sudden we get this...WHAT WAS I THINKING...attitude.   The biggest mystery to life is the perpetual....Am I making the right decision??  This is where I have found that putting complete trust in the Universe is so critical.  The Universe does not make mistakes (neither do we, but we tend to create many lessons!)  and we have to understand the divine timing.  Just like I know that some day I will own my retreat and I will be doing the one thing that I truly love, as my career ..and that is helping people or being in service to others.  So I see only the most wonderful opportunities being drawn to you.   Almathea you are a giant magnet and you will attract the right moves at the right time.   I have a very close and dear friend and she always says to me.."When the time is right".  There is so much to be said for those four words!  I always wake up to the thought of....I am so blessed to be able to understand the powerful Law of Attraction.

We shall all work together on this with you.....and it will be beautiful!

In praise and glory of the Most High,
Desiree

[Almathea]

Well I'd leave tomorrow if I knew you were going to be my neighbour! And you are so right, I'm quite used to the ''what was I thinking??'' feeling. But on the other side, I've realised that after you get over a depression for example you can say something like ''so this is what it feels like not having my dream. Well I've survived so why not start thinking positive thoughts, trusting the Divine and see what happens? It can't get any worse than this so I have nothing to lose''

And BTW I had a pretty experience last night. As I was walking down the street to visit someone I looked at the night sky (completely convinced it was cloudy and there was nothing to see) and surprise! it was FULL of stars I mean I've never seen them shine so bright in my life (and I'm in love with the stars and moon, that's why I wanted to become an astronomer when I was smaller). It was like my favorite part of the Universe was telling me: ''wipe your tears and just TRUST ME!''

This is becoming awesome!

[dolphindream]

yes Almathea...I too have a wonderful connection to the starry skies and Grandmother moon!  there is this infinite feeling when I look to the cosmos.  So vast, so beautiful, so inspiring.  The first word I learned as a child was moon!  I find astronomy and astrology fascinating (they are both interwoven with each other...much like us!) I like to say I have my head in the cosmos and my feet planted firmly on Mother Earth!  Keep seeing the beauty of the All, Almathea and know that the Divine is working overtime to help you achieve your hearts desire!  This is awesome......I agree 100%!

[Almathea]

You said it better than I ever could! And I would like to thank you so much because you were the one who got me over this rotten moment. Your wisdom really inspires me, Desiree and I'd be honoured if I could call you my friend.

[dolphindream]

Almathea....I would be honoured!  This is what is so wonderul about this board.  Everyone is so caring and helpful. I know what it is like having a "not so good day" and sometimes we just need that helping hand to get us over the hump.  I see this here, everyday.
It is awesome. When we manifest things it is like having our personal cheerleaders!  TOOO COOL!  I make a point to check in on everyone everyday....no matter what!  Sometimes it may not be til late at night or wee hours in the morning....but none the less, I just enjoy doing it.   When you ask for help here...you get it!  Ronit and Jeanne have been exceptional....and you Almathea, you are special!   I have read most of the posts, the info here is well worth it's weight in gold.  Anisa has blessed us with a beautiful place to be!  We all add to this blessing and it makes it a special gift.   So we are counting down to 2007 and I wouldn't be any where else but here!

Smile darling......it is going to be an awesome year!   whoooo hooooo!

[Almathea]

Exactly. I'm looking forward to reading successful manifesting stories and sharing my own in 2007 on this board. I think each of us have found a little piece of our destinies here.